Friday, November 02, 2007
Sometimes I wonder, what is it about me, that seem to attract all the fucktards in the world?

My past two boyfriends have been assholes, the guys I've dated have been more or less assholes, and the guys I'm getting to know are also, okay maybe not complete assholes but I can't seem to find a decent male whom I feel I can actually count on. They're all either mats (I know you know we know we all can't trust mats), childish morons, or people who are sweet and all (to the extent of giving flowers) but expect me to fall in love with them almost immediately.

Do I have "I only date FUCKFACES" stamped all over my face? DO I?



Damn. Why the sudden moodiness Fiq? People tell me not to think too much. I'M NOT.

I swear. You think I like being moody? WELL I DON'T K. You think I like being a cranky bitch? I don't! I'm slapping myself for being a cranky bitch but I can't stop being a cranky bitch. God.

Maybe I should get a life-sized Ken doll. I'll spray fake tan on him, put floppy blondish brown hair on him, dress him up like those oldschool Vespa boys and take him out. When I get enough money, I'll fix a voicebox and an intelligent microchip on him so we could have intellectual conversations by the sea.

Who says you can't find love in plastic?


Well, you can't. I can't marry Ken, can I? Grrr. And we cannot fornicate either. So that sucks.

Other than that, today was awesome. I don't like to impose my moodiness on people so I'm fine when I'm out with you guys. Makes me forget all the shit that's clogging up my mind. I feel so old sometimes. But I know, there's alot more worse shit that can happen to me when I actually get older so I'm thankful where I am now. I guess.

AH DAHLAH I don't know WTF I'm talking about anymore. I'll go to sleep now. Ta.