Monday, June 25, 2007

Today did not get off to a good start. I had a nightmare in which I was working, and I had ten angry customers scolding me because I basically kept screwing up. Scary.

Then I got pissed off, not at anybody in particular, but because when I woke up this morning, the roast chicken sandwich and monster cookie I brought home from closing yesterday and which I was SO SO SO looking forward to devouring WERE FREAKING GONE. Why? The other children took it because my mum happily let them do so. LIKE WTF man.

For once I get these two items marked out and I wake up to find them GONE!!! Do you know how frustrating that is??? I made abit of noise and you know what my mum said? "Next time don't bring home lah." Bring home wrong, never bring home also wrong. My god. I really should take her advice. Next time I won't be so kind as to lug home treats for the whole family, but only for myself. See, this is the damn reason why it's so difficult to be nice. She could have asked me right, which ones I want for myself, and let the kids take the rest, but NOOOOO.

And the brothers also, never spare a thought for me. I bring home stuff for them, and they can actually ask me, "Oreo cheesecake don't have ah? This one don't have ah? That one don't have ah? Eh I want that I want this! " MY GOD LAH. ORANG DAH BAWAK BALIK CEKIK JE LAH SAMDOL.

So yes, this is it. I shall only bring home things for myself, no matter how mean that may sound.

But obviously eventually I will start bringing more home because I cannot stand seeing food being thrown away, so I'd rather bring them home and give them to ingrates.


I was so pissed I actually got a headache. Haha.

Anyway, I haven't been getting enough sleep for the past few days.
Production Crew camp was fun as hell.
Rock for Wayne was fucking awesome.
Work the morning after was quite alright because Boss was in a good mood.

So it's all good.

Well, except for this morning anyway. Already smsed my mum to keep the remaining food for me, and she hasn't replied so yeah. *takes deep breath*

Shall elaborate on the abovementioned events later since I'm in school now. Ta!

@ 8:16 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Can somebody rich bring me to Krabi or Honolulu or some secluded island in the Mediterranean where all I'll be doing is eat shrimp salad and drink cocktails and watch sunsets? Please?

Where can I find a nice, decent-looking, honest and sincere guy? Now that's a question to twist your brain over.

Why is it that I feel very tired when it's not like I went rock-climbing or marathon-ing for the past few days?

Why all the questions woman. Stop it lah, stop it.

You know what, I just realised I've been single for exactly 5 months now.

Anyway, I'm too tired to blog so I will... blog another time! Goodnight everybody.

@ 6:11 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Can somebody smack me please?

I thought school starts this coming week, BUT IT'S NOT!
Yes, Miss Blur Like Sotong here didn't check her academic calendar and for some godforsaken reason, assumed this week is her last week of holidays la la la la la...

So yeah, school starts on the 25th of June. I just cheated myself of my feelings LOL.

Anyhoo, store outing was a blast!

Went to East Coast, walked about a gazillion miles to the hawker center, squeezed at a not-so-big table and stuffed ourselves with rice, vegetables and seafood (stingray and sotong!!! YUMZA). And then laughed ourselves silly by telling STUPIDass jokes and playing STUPIDER games.

I swear, that night, I was THIS close to having a six-pack due to laughing so much.



Almost got into trouble because I reached home at midnight. ALMOST.

I think my Dad's getting sick of not having control of my curfews anymore. Okay, I don't think, I know. But hey, he'll have to get used to it.

I watched Fantastic Four with Kin, Yana and Izzy yesterday. I LOVED IT.
Especially the parts with the Silver Surfer. Omgosh, even though he's silver all over, he's still DAMN HOT. Like DAMN DAMN DAMN hot. Woooh.

The movie was funny and entertaining, and definitely worth waking up at 8 in the morning for. I can't do like, a whole insightful review because I'm not a big comic buff, but I guess I'm starting to appreciate comics now. I used to have stacks of them, but I was too young to appreciate their value, and SADLY ENOUGH my Dad threw them all away lah like what the hell!

GRRR. They could have been worth something you know.

OKAY. I'm too lazy to type. So this will be the end of my post today. Turrah!

@ 11:31 PM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Tag replies!

YANA: I lazy to link people lah. If you noticed, my blog has no links whatsoever. Haha and yah I like orange too woowaawee!

han: Yeah, I cheered up already. Thankyou lah.

zahd: Ahahahaha okay! Eh I haven't seen you in ages lah. Tsk. The 4/3 gathering better happen.

kin: Mother! So what's heavier than wanton mee? LMAO stupid hadi.

atiqah: WOOHHH you're back! Awww thanks babe, love you many many too!

Store outing today! But it's raining here. Why can't it rain cash or cheesecakes? I swear I will have fits or something because I'll be so damn delighted. And my hair is too fluffy. Stupid budget shampoo. I need my Sunsilk.

Wahh the rain damn heavy can.

School's starting next week. It feels so weird talking about school again, after working for the past two and a half weeks. I like work, and there's this dangerous feeling of not looking forward to school, just working my life away... Making coffee.. Talking to random customers.. Eating chicken puffs.. Drinking Cookies and Cream (it's not on the menu nyahahaha thanks hadi! my new favourite drink, I swear I'm addicted to it)..

BUT I like school more, duh. I miss my classmates.

I still have difficulties merging work and school in one life. School on its own is crazy and tiring, work is even crazier and exhausting, I can't imagine putting them together. But I'll never know if I don't try. OKAY I CAN DO IT WOOHOO.

" Asal dari belakang kau lawa ah? "


But I have to say that's a new one.

I hope I don't get sent for attachments. Not yet, anyway. Especially to a store which uses La Marzocco, I'll probably freak out and have spasms on the floor or something. You can do it Kinneh! She's going Starbucks e-Life on Saturday. Nyahahahaha.

Am off to figure out what to wear. Sheesh I'm such a goddamn vainpot.

' why does it always rain on me?
is it because I lied when I was seventeen? '

@ 10:44 PM

Thursday, June 07, 2007

I have been emotionally unstable for the past few days. My mind's been in a whirl and I've been extremely annoyed at myself for being such a FOOL, honestly speaking. I've never been more annoyed at myself. Never. Okay, maybe there were such instances but... you know what I mean.

I hate to call it depression, because it sounds so medical, but I guess it's the only way to term it. It's not exactly sadness, but it's a mix of resignation, regret and misery, with a tinge of hysteria and anger. Except I don't know what exactly I'm angry at, so you could add confusion and uncertainty to the mix I guess. Wooh, talk about unstability.

Sometimes everything seems so pointless. Like, why even bother putting hope into something when it turns out just like the others? I mean, I wouldn't know if it would turn out that way, but after it happens so many times, I'm like, why do I even freaking bother.

So I'm not going to.

Adding on to the misery, I failed my bar test. Utterly goddamn miserably.

When Dean asked me if I was ready, I knew I wasn't, but I just wanted to get it done and over with. BIG MISTAKE. I should have paced myself, made sure of each and every minute detail, and ensured that I was fully confident of not making any mistakes before I decided to go through with it. I thought I could just scrape through, but that was seriously a stupid thought to entertain.

I screwed up my latte and mocha TWICE because they were underweight, I didn't time my espresso shots, and I totally blanked out at chai tea latte. Digressing, I don't understand chai tea, seriously. It smells disgusting, looks even more disgusting, and people still drink it. And because of bloody chai tea, I screwed up my bar test big time! Bodoh nye chai tea. Rawr.

And I kept spilling milk. That was really my breaking point. I don't know why but I feel extremely incompetent whenever the milk I'm pouring spills. Then I panic and get really frustrated and everything falls apart.

Add to the depression I was having prior to that, and you get a winning formula to FAIL.

But being me, I always cheer up in the end, even if the problems do not get resolved. So, I'm retaking my bar test ( or in Dean' words: We'll pretend this bar test never happened, and I'll see you for your first bar test on Saturday 10 am okay! ) on Saturday, and I am going to pass, I DONT CARE. I will force myself to pass.

Other than the bar test and depression, yesterday was actually quite a fun day. I did POS, tried to recommend the new summer promo drinks, which is the Azuki Red Bean Frapuccinos, and a few food items, got slightly discouraged after not even one person wanted to try them. But in the end I managed to sell around 10 Azuki items though. Accomplishment! Go Azuki!

There were two young girls who first came in and ordered "Fresh Orange." I was like huh? We sell oranges?? They meant orange juice. Then they came in again and ordered "espresso". I'm like huh? Sure or not? Like, pure espresso shots leh. Then I explained to them the menu board, and they were like, "Uh, anything with milk lah..." So I gave them iced latte. Haha. Funny.

Today I'm doing closing. Fun fun fun.

There's still remnants of the misery, but I'll try to put it away.

@ 12:28 AM


Okay, so I'm this girl right.

Who had big plans to change the world.
When I was young, I wanted to be either a zoologist, veterinarian or pilot.
I wanted to travel and help eradicate poverty.

And then when this girl grows up, she's all like, fack that!
She becomes guilty of things she never thought she'd have done.
She meets people of all shapes and sizes, some beautiful, some downright fugly.
Both inside and outside.
She becomes acquainted with some things called failure and commitment.
She realises love is as elusive as, perhaps, weight loss.

I let my inner demon out through my art.



green eyes on hot guys, red and purple shoes, pepper and cream puffs, lincoln park at midnight
sitting on carpark roofs talking nonsense, meaningful silences, chewy cookie bits in vanilla ice cream
chocolate icing, shopping till my legs give out, smiling at random people, thinking about stuff



panadol or whatever pills for that matter, retarded nails, losing my voice, being broke
bananas, my thighs and big ass, man boobs, seeing something i really like but discovering that it costs a bomb


levi's jeans, pimple cream, fake lashes, hair dye, a bigger paycheque, M&Ms
new specs, and possibly a hotass guy to sweep me off my feet



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