Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I'm not working today. Don't know if that's a good thing or not. I got to sleep in late (that is, if 10 in the morning is considered late), but I don't get to see him. Yeah, the one who's testing my patience oh-so-coyly.

I've got a few number ones now. Not a good thing, but not a bad thing either.

One thing's for sure, I'm not going to dive into a relationship anyhow, maybe give myself a break for a year, get to know more people, and find someone I can really connect with. Last impulse decision caused me nine months of near-hell, and I'm not going to let that happen to me again.

But I guess sometimes I get too caught up for my own good. Must. Distance. Myself. If they're not going to get any closer, I'm not going to waste my time getting any nearer.


It's hard when work sucks. I haven't been eating properly because I'm broke, I've been wasting precious time stoning when I could be doing shoes, I've been winded up unnecessarily because of biasedness and whatnot. I know you tell me it could be worse, it's all work etiquette and whatever, but it's real hard because this is my first job, so I need some time to get myself used to the fuck-ups involved in work.

Don't you think it's ironical to call it work etiquette when etiquette is not supposed to piss you off? Okay, I rephrase, work politics. Yeah, that's better.

I'm feeling nervous about starting school. Have I told you people how I hate orientation? I hope it's not the hello how are you, my name is blah blah let's all play musical chairs or pass the parcel and embarass the hell out of ourselves. Nah, design school should be cooler than that. Right? Please say yes.

I wish they would just let us transit smoothly into the daily routine, rather than do a grand bang opening. I mean, I want to start doing work, after months of not doing any school work, I'm starting to miss assignments and projects and notes.

Omg did I just say that? *slaps myself very hard*

Sorry, must have been under a spell.

I think, I'm a poly student now, and I get shivers. Serious! I'm seventeen now, and there's only what, three years left of my teenhood. What the heck? But yeah, I'm glad I'll be spending these three years in poly. One day I'll go to school in my pinafore, just for the heck of it. Hahah.

Yesterday Shikin, Nadiah, Zee and Endang visited me at work! Love you all.

We ate at LJS and laughed our asses off. Endang ah, Pak Jo lah don't know what lah. And yes, people looked at us funny, but people in the East don't look at us as funny as people in the North. I think people in the North should just lighten up. Lol what the hell I'm talking about, I have no idea.

I want more Freddos!!!

But since I'm broke, I can't have more Freddos. Sad. And they don't sell Twix at NTUC! What the hell! I had to settle on Kinder Bueno. Just when I'm feeling oldschool chocolate. Kinder Bueno is more like an evergreen chocolate, like Cadbury bars and MnMs. Stuff like Twix, KitKat (not Chunky, the fingers), Freddos, Cadbury Eggs, now that shit is ancient. Oh, remember those twisted biscuits covered in chocolate from Nestle?? I love those, but I can't find them anymore!

Ritterman, those Belgian shells, chocolate trays, that's for when you get your paycheque. When you're feeling cute, you eat Meiji. Yeah. I just reclassified chocolate.

Something to ponder on, are you the kind of person to wake a sleeping passenger when the bus reaches the interchange?

@ 7:54 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

My computer is back! After being comatose for ages. And yes, sadly, it had to be reformatted, so all my bleddy pictures are gone. Boohoo.

I have cute nails on today, so I feel motivated to blog. Haha! I swear, working at this place makes me more like a bimbo everyday. Outwardly, of course, I'm proud to say that my intellect is still intact. After throwing out all the nonsense Physics and Chemistry stuff, my brain's all fresh and clean now.

I got a warning for "sitting around and smsing" instead of "promoting our products" today. WHATEVER. Did they care that I haven't eaten since morning, and because of that I had no energy to prance around customers and pushing products in their face? It's a free world man, I will sit down and sms if I want to. HUH.

I need money, big time. I only have 6 bucks left in my account. Like, what the hell? I can't even top up my ez-link with 6 bucks.

Ah, significant event. My birthday!

It fell on a Saturday, so obviously I took leave. I was supposed to go out with Shikin, then maybe go bowling with Newa or something, just a chilled out day.

BUT my beloved dears (Sarah Atiqah Shahidah Han Shikin) had other ideas! They, being the cunning and stealthy operators they are, planned a surprise for me, which i had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA about. I swear, I didn't see it coming at all lah.

Shikin wanted to meet me at Bishan to "do some stuff", yes I know, slap me because it all seems so obvious right now. When I got there, she was nowhere in sight, so I chatted with Nas for awhile (she was involved too, would you believe it?) then she came back and gave me a stack of kental pictures with more kental stuff written on the back. Awwww.

Then she said, Let's go eat at Secret Recipe. We were supposed to eat at Subway, and again slap me harder because I STILL didn't see it coming, so we went there, and who did I see sitting conveniently near the entrance with four slabs of cake and candles stuck in them?

I was like, shrieking okay. Omg!! Omg! You guys suck! Hahah.

Then they brought me shopping. And I bought my Dorothy Perkins pants, which I love to bits.

I swear that was the best surprise I ever got in my life, other than my PSLE and O-Level results lol.


Gawd, school's starting soon. I'm sexcited as hell. Already found two course mates (that sounds wrong, somehow), looking out for more! Won't be going for the non-compulsory orientation, but I'll be using the alibi hehehehehehehehehehehe ahem to ahem cough go for underaged cough gasp parties.

I need to dance and play pool.

Okay that's all for now honeys. Ta!

@ 5:39 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

New blogskin!

Apparently my old blogskin got its bandwidth exceeded or something, so everything was unseeable.

Yes, I'm finally blogging after eons of not doing so. And seeing it's already 10pm and I have to wake up early for work tomorrow, I can't blog alot.

So far, I'm getting sick of my job, sick of staring at people's nails (which are mostly, sad to say, retarded), sick of the management, just sick and tired. Due to certain greivances, which I don't think I want to publish in case somebody related to the management stumbles across my blog and gets me fired, I find work sickening.

So, I'm going to stick it out till mid-April, then I'll quit and look for another job.

Other than that, I think life is good. I've been able to shop by myself, and not having to worry about money shortage (although now I have to stop spending or I'll have no money for daily expenses haha), I've met new people and found new meaning to no strings attached, making full use of my singlehood... It's all good.

Shit of all things to forget to buy. I forgot facial wash. Stupid.

Gahh. I guess that's all for now honeys.

@ 5:51 AM


Okay, so I'm this girl right.

Who had big plans to change the world.
When I was young, I wanted to be either a zoologist, veterinarian or pilot.
I wanted to travel and help eradicate poverty.

And then when this girl grows up, she's all like, fack that!
She becomes guilty of things she never thought she'd have done.
She meets people of all shapes and sizes, some beautiful, some downright fugly.
Both inside and outside.
She becomes acquainted with some things called failure and commitment.
She realises love is as elusive as, perhaps, weight loss.

I let my inner demon out through my art.



green eyes on hot guys, red and purple shoes, pepper and cream puffs, lincoln park at midnight
sitting on carpark roofs talking nonsense, meaningful silences, chewy cookie bits in vanilla ice cream
chocolate icing, shopping till my legs give out, smiling at random people, thinking about stuff



panadol or whatever pills for that matter, retarded nails, losing my voice, being broke
bananas, my thighs and big ass, man boobs, seeing something i really like but discovering that it costs a bomb


levi's jeans, pimple cream, fake lashes, hair dye, a bigger paycheque, M&Ms
new specs, and possibly a hotass guy to sweep me off my feet



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